FEELING OF IMMORTALITY ~ POEM BY MONIQUE LUCY WEBERINK

FEELING OF IMMORTALITY

Please stop, I need silence inside

Be quiet, there is so much noise

No longer is it possible to live

Words are floating away from me

Dragged along with the ocean tide

My body and soul are kept in piece

While walking along this seashore

Feelings are drawn away from me

Picked up by the unpredictable tide

Gone forever dragged into the deep

New waves keep arriving onshore

The water looks so tender and soft

But at the same time so very cruel

I am much aware of my vulnerability

So small am I in the presence of you

Why did you always need control

You have drowned my personality

And the water continued to call me

Always these same waveless voices

Why didn’t you just let me drift away

A meander of tears escaping my eyes

This desperate heart of mine is leaking

Flooding my remorse and bitter feelings

A pool which colors are nothing but dark

Slowly vaporized by the heat of hatred

The sand sticks to my feet as if a warning

But its no use I am encouraged to walk on

This luring abyss is dangerously present

A constant flux of changes but I hesitate

Before me the sun disappears at horizons end

I realize I am just focused on my own pain

Words no longer reach my sinking heart

But the emotional wound is cut too deep

I am desperately seeking my own relief

Do I honestly think this is not the end?

Monique Lucy Weberink

January, 2012



Demon and Angel with Tamara’s Soul (1891) by Vrubel